Saturday, March 28, 2009

Senior Year--WOW--high school...my school!

Well, my head stopped spinning. Just in time, too! Sorry, it's been so long since I last 'posted on this blog'. It has been a journey these past 12 days.

Yesterday, I did a 'note' on Facebook called 'Senior Year'...at the prompting of my sister, LaDonna...(thanks, LaDonna for tagging me as your car pool person). Because of that exercise, I learned how clueless I was about her and others around me...how completely self-absorbed I was then (and sometimes tend to be even now--30 years later!)

It made me start thinking...and remembering high school, my school. To some, (and I've met them at reunions), that is their identity for the rest of their lives. While, yes, 1979, was THE year...I'm not certain what it was THE year to accomplish...except graduate and get on with life.

This exercise prompted many memories of people and events and things that I've said, or done in the past.

I was a snob--a Pharisee--to say the least...not a "light for Jesus in the halls of my high school". Of course I had a faith when I was in high school...and I listened to a lot of people, about struggles and temptations, etc. and I did try to encourage them....but now I question if I truly loved them with the love of Christ. OR, was I consumed more with telling them how to live to be holy, probably heaping on tons of guilt, as well and NOT introducing them to Jesus. Some of that might have been immaturity...and some of it could've been inexperience...some of it, a lot of it, was probably driven by my pride.

In the Journey this week, Luke 12:1-3 hit me between my eyes, I love that about God...He is good to show me what I need...This passage addresses hypocrisy right off...what we say in secret will be 'proclaimed from the roof tops'...My fear is not of man (or woman:)) any more, it is of my God, who has the power to throw me in to hell...I want to serve HIM only...proclaim HIM only, and introduce my friends, new and old to my Best Friend, Jesus...He is ALL I NEED!

I've repented for being a snob. I continue to be a recovering-Pharisee, though, and so, I must keep short accounts with God, concerning my legalistic attitudes and thoughts. He continues to show me ways that He can use even me in this thing we call life, to point others to HIM. That's my goal now...don't look to me, please be encouraged by me, but see Jesus, please!

To my old friends, know that I do LOVE YOU with the LOVE of Christ!
To my new friends, I love you, as well because of Jesus--and De Colores!

2 comments:

Cathy said...

This is so rich and true. Fear of the Lord is wisdom. I love you my friend in Jesus. Keep pressing on-

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