One more year. Yes, one more year I have made it through Mother's Day. That is a strange thing to say, you might be thinking, but trust me when I say--there have been some years that I did not think I could make it--the pain was too fresh. Have you ever been there? I am here to tell you that there is hope for new and brighter days--it's sort of like being in a place that is darkest just before the dawn...the pain will lessen--but cherish the memories, please.
For me, this past Mother's Day was delightful. We were able to see our family for the noon meal...and laugh and eat and talk together. (--sort of, the venue was pretty crowed and the tables that we got to sit in were round instead of rectangle--so we were sort of spread out, but it worked out just fine).
One of my favorite things on Mother's Day is the cards, for they are always sweet...the girls do a pretty good job of writing what they are feeling at the moment--which always makes me tear up...and then we take pictures...of me with our girls, then the whole family together.
For many years, in the 1980's and then through the beginning of the 1990's we would share the noon meal with my Grandma Sisk. That gathering would usually include all the 'Sisk' cousins--of which none of them ever carried the last name of Sisk--and there were always babies to cuddle, and Grandma to make laugh. Making Virginia laugh was never a difficult task--for she dearly loved life and loved to laugh. She was really good at it, too!
Then, as our family transitioned from a small family to a LARGE family, we opted not to travel so much on this day, rather staying close to home. Within eight years, the holiday became a bitter reminder for me of what was not to be. When we sent Macy to Heaven, the day instantly became a symbol of frustration for what my life would never be again. In some sort of twisted way, I felt like I had failed at mothering--because we were walking around with this hole in our family, for the one that was no longer here with us.
Please do not mis-understand. I love our family so much...and every moment we are together I cherish...so the line between selfishness and nostalgia sometimes can gets murky. For several years after our loss, I did not want to do anything to celebrate that day, truly I wanted to just skip it, for I simply did not feel very festive--and I did not feel worthy of any kind of 'honor' that the day is designed to offer. I did try, though, on some level to join in but the day would begin and end with tears.
This lasted for several years--and then one year, I decided to begin preparing for the day in advance. I took to task to remember appropriately what a special gift we have been given in each of our children and grandchildren. Each one needs to be celebrated and each one needs to understand how very much they mean to me. The Truth is, I will be given all of eternity to celebrate with Macy. And, while there is breath in my lungs I have a responsibility to celebrate those that are here with us now in a way that will be enjoyable and bring honor to Our God.
For the years ahead, I will strive to cherish the memories of all the Mother's Days I have lived. I shared above about my Grandma. What you may not realize is that she died on Thanksgiving Day 1991...and to this day, I do not go to a good place to eat without thinking of her--for not only did she enjoy laughing--she loved a good meal--and pie!
The current Mother's Days will be fun to watch Alayna be lavished with precious hand-made gifts from her children--and the sweet words that they are prompted to write about her and to her on this day. She is an awesome mommy and her children and her husband love to be with her.
I have much to be thankful for, and the time we have here on this earth is so short--I do not want to waste a minute feeling sad about 'what might have been'...for that is not reality!
One last thing: if you belong to the same "club" as me...I am sorry for your loss...but please try to approach Mother's Day with a different perspective than dread. Please, cherish the blessing and the memory and enjoy those that are there with you now, for that is all we are assured of--right now!
Wednesday, May 15, 2013
Wednesday, May 8, 2013
My Chains are Gone?
"We don't know each other any more. An astonishing story." (a couple of Mike Barnicle's comments on Morning Joe MS NBC 5/8/13)
These words were spoken in relation to the news story about three women kidnapped in 2002...and only now, in 2013, one escaped to draw attention to the rest in Cleveland, OH--some report that they had been chained by the waist, living in the basement of a house by three brothers for all this time.
We are completely amazed how this could have happened in twenty-first century, United States of America. The Land of the free, the Home of the brave. Some are saying that police have been led to this house at various times throughout the years, but no action was taken. How could this happen to young women, not little girls, young women, without someone noticing?
I do not have any idea how it happened, and I'm pretty sure that there are details of this incident that we will never know.
My questions range From: how could three brothers do such a thing? How could three young women 'stay'...did they even have a choice? And, where were the police investigators-- the women were reported missing--at what point did the search for them stop? Is it possible that no one saw anything, at all?
To questions along the lines of: Could this kind of thing be happening in my town, in my neighborhood? Or, in yours?
We live in a generation where no one wants to get involved. And do we, in this 21st century, really want to get to know each other? The next time you are in a busy public place just look around. People are enamored, I might go so far to say obsessed, with their cell phones--no time for face to face conversation--there must be a screen involved...(think skype, snap-chat, etc.)
On the other hand, we have information from around the world at our finger-tips through the technology of those phones. As a matter of fact, I have downloaded an app that makes my phone buzz to alert me of 'breaking news.' (the DOW hit 15,000 yesterday, for example)
And yet, our society remains uninformed...uninvolved and seemingly very lonely. It was with great shock and awe that I listened recently to a group of students arriving for their class time with loud and rude comments and gestures--the class was called Interpersonal Relationships...really.
I think of these three recently 'freed' women --free to live a life with out being chained by the waist. Certainly in bondage. But at the very same time, those students are in a form of bondage to an image they are trying to live up to--struggling to be accepted by their peers with their actions and words--only to make themselves and those around them more miserable.
We can be in bondage to our jobs, our addictions, our friends, our debt, our passions and/or our______(fill in the blank). Indeed....just about anything that captivates us to the point that we can think of little else. Indeed, we do not have to be chained by the waist in a stranger's basement to live in bondage and slavery, do we? We can walk around as 'free people' and yet live in bondage.
One Sabbath, Jesus, while standing in the synagogue in Nazareth, read these words once written by the ancient prophet, Isaiah (61:1,2)
"The Spirit of the Lord is on me, because he has anointed me to preach good news to the poor. He has sent me to proclaim freedom for the prisoners and recovery of sight for the blind, to release the oppressed, to proclaim the year of the Lord's favor." (my emphasis)
Then he rolled up the scroll and simply sat down...with all eyes "fastened on him"...he began to teach them by saying, "Today this scripture is fulfilled in your hearing." (This account and Jesus' teaching that got him driven out of Nazareth are found in Luke 4:14-30)
The reason I write His words here is to share with you that the prophecy has truly been fulfilled! There is a way out of bondage...we do not have to live as slaves...or captives...our chains can truly be gone, just like these three young women who's pictures we see on the news this morning.
I once heard Sheila Walsh (Women of Faith Speaker) say, "Freedom is not the absence of bars, it is the Presence of God." There is truth there. Pursue Truth. Pursue Freedom, through a personal relationship with God....freedom; recovery; release...the Lord's favor! The message of hope--to a lonely generation...
These words were spoken in relation to the news story about three women kidnapped in 2002...and only now, in 2013, one escaped to draw attention to the rest in Cleveland, OH--some report that they had been chained by the waist, living in the basement of a house by three brothers for all this time.
We are completely amazed how this could have happened in twenty-first century, United States of America. The Land of the free, the Home of the brave. Some are saying that police have been led to this house at various times throughout the years, but no action was taken. How could this happen to young women, not little girls, young women, without someone noticing?
I do not have any idea how it happened, and I'm pretty sure that there are details of this incident that we will never know.
My questions range From: how could three brothers do such a thing? How could three young women 'stay'...did they even have a choice? And, where were the police investigators-- the women were reported missing--at what point did the search for them stop? Is it possible that no one saw anything, at all?
To questions along the lines of: Could this kind of thing be happening in my town, in my neighborhood? Or, in yours?
We live in a generation where no one wants to get involved. And do we, in this 21st century, really want to get to know each other? The next time you are in a busy public place just look around. People are enamored, I might go so far to say obsessed, with their cell phones--no time for face to face conversation--there must be a screen involved...(think skype, snap-chat, etc.)
On the other hand, we have information from around the world at our finger-tips through the technology of those phones. As a matter of fact, I have downloaded an app that makes my phone buzz to alert me of 'breaking news.' (the DOW hit 15,000 yesterday, for example)
And yet, our society remains uninformed...uninvolved and seemingly very lonely. It was with great shock and awe that I listened recently to a group of students arriving for their class time with loud and rude comments and gestures--the class was called Interpersonal Relationships...really.
I think of these three recently 'freed' women --free to live a life with out being chained by the waist. Certainly in bondage. But at the very same time, those students are in a form of bondage to an image they are trying to live up to--struggling to be accepted by their peers with their actions and words--only to make themselves and those around them more miserable.
We can be in bondage to our jobs, our addictions, our friends, our debt, our passions and/or our______(fill in the blank). Indeed....just about anything that captivates us to the point that we can think of little else. Indeed, we do not have to be chained by the waist in a stranger's basement to live in bondage and slavery, do we? We can walk around as 'free people' and yet live in bondage.
One Sabbath, Jesus, while standing in the synagogue in Nazareth, read these words once written by the ancient prophet, Isaiah (61:1,2)
"The Spirit of the Lord is on me, because he has anointed me to preach good news to the poor. He has sent me to proclaim freedom for the prisoners and recovery of sight for the blind, to release the oppressed, to proclaim the year of the Lord's favor." (my emphasis)
Then he rolled up the scroll and simply sat down...with all eyes "fastened on him"...he began to teach them by saying, "Today this scripture is fulfilled in your hearing." (This account and Jesus' teaching that got him driven out of Nazareth are found in Luke 4:14-30)
The reason I write His words here is to share with you that the prophecy has truly been fulfilled! There is a way out of bondage...we do not have to live as slaves...or captives...our chains can truly be gone, just like these three young women who's pictures we see on the news this morning.
I once heard Sheila Walsh (Women of Faith Speaker) say, "Freedom is not the absence of bars, it is the Presence of God." There is truth there. Pursue Truth. Pursue Freedom, through a personal relationship with God....freedom; recovery; release...the Lord's favor! The message of hope--to a lonely generation...
Monday, May 6, 2013
"GRACE--More than we Deserve; Greater than we Imagine"
GRACE, the title of the most recent event in our Church's "Worship Through the Arts" effort! I was a small part of the choir yesterday, as we rehearsed for an hour, then performed for an hour, took a break, and came back to perform once more in the middle of the afternoon.
I want to pause for a moment, because his name did not even appear on the program, to acknowledge and say thank you --to Phillip Walthall. Phillip, thank you for your leadership, your courage, and for the way that you obviously are trusting God's hand of provision in this ministry of music and arts that you direct. Thanks, for allowing God to use your talents and for sharing them with the part of the Body of Christ that meets at First Baptist Church, Vincennes.
Yesterday, as I stood singing songs of worship and praise--I couldn't help but reflect on how thankful I am for the Grace that God has extended to me individually, to my family corporately and to this church that He has allowed us to currently call 'home.'
Just one of the lines we sang, and indeed the message of the Gospel, is that God has "turned my tragedy to glory--for this is my grace story!" Don't you just love that about Him!?
The effort yesterday, didn't just happen--it took thought, planning and practice. Not to mention all the logistics for setting up and tearing down--even re-locating regular Sunday morning services to the gym for the morning.
Let me be clear, though, I'm speaking from the 'third row soprano' experience. Within that experience there were hours of learning the notes, tempos, rests and timing. Not to mention learning 'how' to breathe and 'when' to breathe, as well. Phrases of the songs have played over and over in my mind these past many weeks.
The choir worked independently to memorize the words of each of song. And, then the day came--the day that no one, except maybe Phillip, was looking forward to: the day that we were to sing without books....And you see, even though it was scary to miss-call words--or not have the exact note that was written on the page--we had to keep it in perspective.
For weeks we practiced with recorded music. And, then the day came that the musicians were added; this meant that there would be no more CD accompaniment. From my chair, I could only hear drums and a little bit of the piano...and the sopranos singing on my right and on my left. Even though this sounded less than right to me, I had to trust that the sound technicians were blending it all together to make it pleasing to the audience. Indeed, if the sound had been mixed to be most pleasing to my ear, it would have sounded like a mess to the masses.
After the musicians were added, there were added these beautiful elements of worship that enhanced the words of the message the choir would sing. The choir did not have a part in preparing those that presented a message through sign language, a worship dance, solos, voice ensembles and a personal testimony. Each one, though, was placed at just the right moment to beautifully continue the timeless message of GRACE.
From lights, sound, video and video efforts to each note played by the orchestra...it was not to be for me, because I had a part--small as it was from the third row--not the whole, and that is as it should be. If I had spent my time listening for the drum to miss a beat, or for the altos to miss a note, my focus would have been on the wrong thing.
Think of it like this I could have had a miserable time yesterday if I had focused on the fact that I truly desire to learn to play violin--I could have become jealous and envious of the gifting of those that played the stringed instruments so beautifully--neglecting my part on the third row. OR, I could have played the violin yesterday, without any training or preparation, and that would not have helped the beauty of the performance in any way, in fact it would have messed it up pretty bad! I would have become completely frustrated with myself, and perhaps with God for not letting me do a different part. (not to mention a huge embarrassment to everyone involved!)
Collectively all our parts were important--because the message of GRACE was/is the most important thing--as an offering of Praise to God Almighty--the very author of GRACE.--the One who turns our tragedy to glory!
And that friends, is a microcosm of the Church--the Body of Christ, the one that He bled and died for so that we could be given this GRACE that we all sang about yesterday...and hopefully are living today!
Within the Body of Christ, the Church, we have a part, and it is uniquely ours. Many times, from our place (think third row soprano section) the work of the church looks 'off' or it doesn't 'sound right'...(someone hits a wrong note, or a part of the whole seems louder than the others)...We learn from one another--we encourage one another--but we must still be responsible for our part of the work of the Church...not comparing ourselves to the others or becoming jealous because their part looks more like something we'd like to do.
We should not be jealous or envious of each other because of our part; we need to prepare our part to the best of our practiced ability to bring glory and honor to Him. (think of my desire to play the violin)
By His grace we have been saved...by His grace we live and move and breathe..by His grace, we can be a gift to the Body.
Now GO: sing, dance, play the violin, or type words into a blog...do it all for God's Glory, because ultimately: HE Is the Audience!!
.
I want to pause for a moment, because his name did not even appear on the program, to acknowledge and say thank you --to Phillip Walthall. Phillip, thank you for your leadership, your courage, and for the way that you obviously are trusting God's hand of provision in this ministry of music and arts that you direct. Thanks, for allowing God to use your talents and for sharing them with the part of the Body of Christ that meets at First Baptist Church, Vincennes.
Yesterday, as I stood singing songs of worship and praise--I couldn't help but reflect on how thankful I am for the Grace that God has extended to me individually, to my family corporately and to this church that He has allowed us to currently call 'home.'
Just one of the lines we sang, and indeed the message of the Gospel, is that God has "turned my tragedy to glory--for this is my grace story!" Don't you just love that about Him!?
The effort yesterday, didn't just happen--it took thought, planning and practice. Not to mention all the logistics for setting up and tearing down--even re-locating regular Sunday morning services to the gym for the morning.
Let me be clear, though, I'm speaking from the 'third row soprano' experience. Within that experience there were hours of learning the notes, tempos, rests and timing. Not to mention learning 'how' to breathe and 'when' to breathe, as well. Phrases of the songs have played over and over in my mind these past many weeks.
The choir worked independently to memorize the words of each of song. And, then the day came--the day that no one, except maybe Phillip, was looking forward to: the day that we were to sing without books....And you see, even though it was scary to miss-call words--or not have the exact note that was written on the page--we had to keep it in perspective.
For weeks we practiced with recorded music. And, then the day came that the musicians were added; this meant that there would be no more CD accompaniment. From my chair, I could only hear drums and a little bit of the piano...and the sopranos singing on my right and on my left. Even though this sounded less than right to me, I had to trust that the sound technicians were blending it all together to make it pleasing to the audience. Indeed, if the sound had been mixed to be most pleasing to my ear, it would have sounded like a mess to the masses.
After the musicians were added, there were added these beautiful elements of worship that enhanced the words of the message the choir would sing. The choir did not have a part in preparing those that presented a message through sign language, a worship dance, solos, voice ensembles and a personal testimony. Each one, though, was placed at just the right moment to beautifully continue the timeless message of GRACE.
From lights, sound, video and video efforts to each note played by the orchestra...it was not to be for me, because I had a part--small as it was from the third row--not the whole, and that is as it should be. If I had spent my time listening for the drum to miss a beat, or for the altos to miss a note, my focus would have been on the wrong thing.
Think of it like this I could have had a miserable time yesterday if I had focused on the fact that I truly desire to learn to play violin--I could have become jealous and envious of the gifting of those that played the stringed instruments so beautifully--neglecting my part on the third row. OR, I could have played the violin yesterday, without any training or preparation, and that would not have helped the beauty of the performance in any way, in fact it would have messed it up pretty bad! I would have become completely frustrated with myself, and perhaps with God for not letting me do a different part. (not to mention a huge embarrassment to everyone involved!)
Collectively all our parts were important--because the message of GRACE was/is the most important thing--as an offering of Praise to God Almighty--the very author of GRACE.--the One who turns our tragedy to glory!
And that friends, is a microcosm of the Church--the Body of Christ, the one that He bled and died for so that we could be given this GRACE that we all sang about yesterday...and hopefully are living today!
Within the Body of Christ, the Church, we have a part, and it is uniquely ours. Many times, from our place (think third row soprano section) the work of the church looks 'off' or it doesn't 'sound right'...(someone hits a wrong note, or a part of the whole seems louder than the others)...We learn from one another--we encourage one another--but we must still be responsible for our part of the work of the Church...not comparing ourselves to the others or becoming jealous because their part looks more like something we'd like to do.
We should not be jealous or envious of each other because of our part; we need to prepare our part to the best of our practiced ability to bring glory and honor to Him. (think of my desire to play the violin)
By His grace we have been saved...by His grace we live and move and breathe..by His grace, we can be a gift to the Body.
Now GO: sing, dance, play the violin, or type words into a blog...do it all for God's Glory, because ultimately: HE Is the Audience!!
.
Wednesday, April 10, 2013
Today, I am thankful for my husband...
Yes, today I am particularly thankful for my husband. Today is our thirty-second wedding anniversary. I could only imagine what our lives would look like at this moment, as I spoke those all important vows that evening. Let me just say, even though our lives look nothing like I had anticipated back then.
Today, in particular, I remember us as truly young, with our 'future before us'--as so many of our wedding greetings indicated. We had a great support system way back then. Both our parents loved us, and our siblings--we had an amazing 'home church'--and shortly after the wedding, we found at church that would become 'ours' for the next twenty years.
We have traveled many miles, by car, plane, bus and the occasional subway. We have visited many places--interesting, beautiful and relaxing--depending on the place. Randy truly loves to 'go'...sometimes it doesn't eve matter 'where'--just away from here!
We have attended weddings of family and friends. Family reunions, while not consistently held, if there has been one planned we would usually show up. We have enjoyed deep and satisfying friendships with amazing people. Sometimes even traveling with other families to fun destinations--Colorado to ski, or 6 Flags over Mid-America--for example. And, while we love people--all kinds of people--many times we are satisfied just to be together--learning and exploring the world around us.
Our marriage would not be what it is today if we had not had children. Five daughters--WOW--it takes a special man, with nerves of steel, to live with that much estrogen...the first clue was when I woke up from a little nap, just after our first baby was born, and he was rocking this precious baby girl, our Alayna, and singing in her ear, "Every good and perfect gift, comes down from above!" He is such a good dad.
He would help on Sunday mornings with getting the girls ready--when there were only Alayna & Holly--except for hair bows & braids. When the twins joined our family, we would get together for 2am feedings--he would go downstairs to warm two bottles, I would change two diapers, and then we would both rock and feed a baby...precious memories. And, then there were five. Some of the sweetest memories of him caring for me in 'sickness' was during my recovery just after Macy was born. I was almost forty when we got to have her--I didn't 'bounce back' as quickly--he helped so much to keep everything going in the house....and worked more than 'full time' at his job.
And, then the darkest days happened....those, of course, were caused in the void in our home that losing little Macy brought. But, we faced it together, tears in our eyes, hand in hand, shoulder to shoulder...and we recognized it for what it was: an attack from our enemy to try to destroy us. We came through it, closer than ever--but it aged us a lot. And, for that I can be thankful, I think.
And then after a time, our mourning was truly turned to joy, as our family grew some more. We are so thankful for our son-in-law...the understanding and humor that he brings to our family, as the love of Alayna's life, mean that we are blessed beyond measure. And, while their marriage is a gift to our family at large...it is their family as a whole, including their three precious children that complete the gift that they are to us. While Will, Ally and Anna do not 'replace' Macy--they certainly fill the void! And, it is amazing to have their artwork to enjoy! And watch as they grow and learn.
And so, while each day of the past thirty two years has not been complete bliss...I would be correct in saying that each day over the past thirty two years has had some source of laughter in it...and lots of "I love you"'s in it...and that helps make this life worth living. Even through hard moments, we have tried to cheer each other up, and remind each other that we do, truly, love each other!
Today, in particular, I remember us as truly young, with our 'future before us'--as so many of our wedding greetings indicated. We had a great support system way back then. Both our parents loved us, and our siblings--we had an amazing 'home church'--and shortly after the wedding, we found at church that would become 'ours' for the next twenty years.
We have traveled many miles, by car, plane, bus and the occasional subway. We have visited many places--interesting, beautiful and relaxing--depending on the place. Randy truly loves to 'go'...sometimes it doesn't eve matter 'where'--just away from here!
We have attended weddings of family and friends. Family reunions, while not consistently held, if there has been one planned we would usually show up. We have enjoyed deep and satisfying friendships with amazing people. Sometimes even traveling with other families to fun destinations--Colorado to ski, or 6 Flags over Mid-America--for example. And, while we love people--all kinds of people--many times we are satisfied just to be together--learning and exploring the world around us.
Our marriage would not be what it is today if we had not had children. Five daughters--WOW--it takes a special man, with nerves of steel, to live with that much estrogen...the first clue was when I woke up from a little nap, just after our first baby was born, and he was rocking this precious baby girl, our Alayna, and singing in her ear, "Every good and perfect gift, comes down from above!" He is such a good dad.
He would help on Sunday mornings with getting the girls ready--when there were only Alayna & Holly--except for hair bows & braids. When the twins joined our family, we would get together for 2am feedings--he would go downstairs to warm two bottles, I would change two diapers, and then we would both rock and feed a baby...precious memories. And, then there were five. Some of the sweetest memories of him caring for me in 'sickness' was during my recovery just after Macy was born. I was almost forty when we got to have her--I didn't 'bounce back' as quickly--he helped so much to keep everything going in the house....and worked more than 'full time' at his job.
And, then the darkest days happened....those, of course, were caused in the void in our home that losing little Macy brought. But, we faced it together, tears in our eyes, hand in hand, shoulder to shoulder...and we recognized it for what it was: an attack from our enemy to try to destroy us. We came through it, closer than ever--but it aged us a lot. And, for that I can be thankful, I think.
And then after a time, our mourning was truly turned to joy, as our family grew some more. We are so thankful for our son-in-law...the understanding and humor that he brings to our family, as the love of Alayna's life, mean that we are blessed beyond measure. And, while their marriage is a gift to our family at large...it is their family as a whole, including their three precious children that complete the gift that they are to us. While Will, Ally and Anna do not 'replace' Macy--they certainly fill the void! And, it is amazing to have their artwork to enjoy! And watch as they grow and learn.
And so, while each day of the past thirty two years has not been complete bliss...I would be correct in saying that each day over the past thirty two years has had some source of laughter in it...and lots of "I love you"'s in it...and that helps make this life worth living. Even through hard moments, we have tried to cheer each other up, and remind each other that we do, truly, love each other!
Sunday, March 31, 2013
Happy Easter!
Happy Easter! Oh, what a day to celebrate! It is so much 'more' than bunnies, and chocolate...isn't it? Consider--An empty tomb--we CeLebRatE because Jesus defeated death.
This Truth gives us a way to be reconciled to God--the God of Abraham, Isaac & Jacob. The Creator of the Universe--yet lover of my very soul.
Our family celebrated together today. Alayna, her family & Holly met us at "our" church this morning. I love that our whole family was able to worship together in the same place. We do not get to do that each week, as we once did, so today I am truly thankful to sing praise songs with the voices of my kids singing loudly beside me! Especially, Ally's sweet four year old voice, even though she may not have gotten all the words in the right order--the heart was certainly 'there'!!!
After a loud/eventful meal, (remember there are 10 of us, and everyone talks at once) it was time for the "littles" to hunt for eggs....It was warm enough that they could go outside with bare feet--so they did.
While they opened the eggs to find the treasures, the we had a long discussion about hopes & plans for our collective futures...and then at Will & Ally's request some of us played a spirited game of LIFE--hilarious--(while the baby slept).
The perfect end to the day--leftovers in front of the TV version of Disney's Beauty & the Beast...this movie has been a family favorite since before the twins were born!
We are so blessed to celebrate in freedom and enjoy time with all our kids.
...May God Bless you for Reading...
This Truth gives us a way to be reconciled to God--the God of Abraham, Isaac & Jacob. The Creator of the Universe--yet lover of my very soul.
Our family celebrated together today. Alayna, her family & Holly met us at "our" church this morning. I love that our whole family was able to worship together in the same place. We do not get to do that each week, as we once did, so today I am truly thankful to sing praise songs with the voices of my kids singing loudly beside me! Especially, Ally's sweet four year old voice, even though she may not have gotten all the words in the right order--the heart was certainly 'there'!!!
After a loud/eventful meal, (remember there are 10 of us, and everyone talks at once) it was time for the "littles" to hunt for eggs....It was warm enough that they could go outside with bare feet--so they did.
While they opened the eggs to find the treasures, the we had a long discussion about hopes & plans for our collective futures...and then at Will & Ally's request some of us played a spirited game of LIFE--hilarious--(while the baby slept).
The perfect end to the day--leftovers in front of the TV version of Disney's Beauty & the Beast...this movie has been a family favorite since before the twins were born!
We are so blessed to celebrate in freedom and enjoy time with all our kids.
...May God Bless you for Reading...
Monday, March 25, 2013
Spring Break--and a Trip Down Memory Lane...
Yes, it is spring break where we live. I don't know about you, but when I think of that holiday, I think of pedicures, flip flops, the beach (maybe) and a really good book to read. Not this year. No, this year, I am staring out the window at about two inches of snow, and flurries are filling the grey sky. It is truly lovely. Just a little unexpected for this late date. If you have read this blog before, you know all too well my take on weather. It is always wonderful--no matter the color pallet or the for of precipitation--I'm thankful to have air to breathe!
Today marks ten years since we lost Randy's mom. It is hard to believe that it has been that long--and there are moments in time, even this past week, when we just missed her. She answered to a variety of names--from Bernita, to MawMaw...Her name was Bernita Jean--but she would always laugh about a neighbor lady from her childhood that would call her that her Vernita Jane...who knows? I find it hilarious. This little girl, Bernita, grew up to marry Bernard. Yes, hilarious. Especially in light of the fact that I grew up to marry their youngest son, and my own parent's names were Fred & Freda.
Bernita always had great stories about times gone by. There was the story of a family member's house burning down, or the time a neighbor man brought her family a jar of honey. He held it out to them with filthy hands, as he excitedly explained that he had harvested it with his own hands. She once showed me her first grade report card--not to look at the grades so much, but to realize that when she was 6 years old, her teacher had put her name at the top, "Bernita Bishop"--not her last name at all, but it would become Bishop--ten years later!
Anytime I hold one of our precious grand babies, I think of how much she would have enjoyed getting to know them. She loved babies, and they knew it. Our kids have great memories of her, her kitchen and the million cups of hot chocolate she fixed them after they would go for a swim in the pool. As she would hold them or hug them, she would say, "Bless you, baby."...good good memories.
I do regret that I didn't take her cooking instruction more seriously. She could make a feast out of nothing--a talent that I never acquired. She was a great example of a woman who knew herself well, was comfortable in her own skin, and worked very hard to help provide for her family.
I also regret the fact that I did not cultivate my love for a good cup of coffee until after her death. Mostly because we spent many Saturday mornings setting the affairs of the world straight, her drinking her coffee, and me drinking either hot or cold tea. It seems that it would have been better to have enjoyed coffee with her, somehow.
For today, I am going to do my best by drinking a good, hot cup of coffee--and be at peace living in this world, for now. Some days, though, it would be nice to sit across from her, and laugh and talk and ponder what it all means, or meant. Loved her so much. Thankful for the times we had.
Bernita Jean Bishop 10-25-25 -- 3-25-03.
Today marks ten years since we lost Randy's mom. It is hard to believe that it has been that long--and there are moments in time, even this past week, when we just missed her. She answered to a variety of names--from Bernita, to MawMaw...Her name was Bernita Jean--but she would always laugh about a neighbor lady from her childhood that would call her that her Vernita Jane...who knows? I find it hilarious. This little girl, Bernita, grew up to marry Bernard. Yes, hilarious. Especially in light of the fact that I grew up to marry their youngest son, and my own parent's names were Fred & Freda.
Bernita always had great stories about times gone by. There was the story of a family member's house burning down, or the time a neighbor man brought her family a jar of honey. He held it out to them with filthy hands, as he excitedly explained that he had harvested it with his own hands. She once showed me her first grade report card--not to look at the grades so much, but to realize that when she was 6 years old, her teacher had put her name at the top, "Bernita Bishop"--not her last name at all, but it would become Bishop--ten years later!
Anytime I hold one of our precious grand babies, I think of how much she would have enjoyed getting to know them. She loved babies, and they knew it. Our kids have great memories of her, her kitchen and the million cups of hot chocolate she fixed them after they would go for a swim in the pool. As she would hold them or hug them, she would say, "Bless you, baby."...good good memories.
I do regret that I didn't take her cooking instruction more seriously. She could make a feast out of nothing--a talent that I never acquired. She was a great example of a woman who knew herself well, was comfortable in her own skin, and worked very hard to help provide for her family.
I also regret the fact that I did not cultivate my love for a good cup of coffee until after her death. Mostly because we spent many Saturday mornings setting the affairs of the world straight, her drinking her coffee, and me drinking either hot or cold tea. It seems that it would have been better to have enjoyed coffee with her, somehow.
For today, I am going to do my best by drinking a good, hot cup of coffee--and be at peace living in this world, for now. Some days, though, it would be nice to sit across from her, and laugh and talk and ponder what it all means, or meant. Loved her so much. Thankful for the times we had.
Bernita Jean Bishop 10-25-25 -- 3-25-03.
Friday, February 22, 2013
About Fog and a Nomadic Lifestyle
School delay today. It is important to have a school delay, for this morning visibility is extremely limited due to fog. Thick, fluffy, fog. The girls get to sleep in--how wonderful for everyone!
Sometimes I think we need to pray for the fog to be lifted, don't you? Do you ever feel like your ideas, thoughts, dreams are unclear-foggy? I do. I do a lot. I was reading in the book of Numbers this morning. Maybe because of my years, or maybe because of the focused time that I have been given to study. But this morning a couple of things occurred to me. As I have talked about before, life is all about 'change', and if we spend our time whining that 'we don't like change' then we are going to miss a good portion of our life--through out complaining.
If you are like me, I sometimes think that if I had been wondering around in the desert, following Moses, I would never have complained, I would have just seen the plagues and the parting of the Red Sea--and fresh manna every morning. And, I would keep in mind that 'the Promised Land' was coming.
Plus, from my vantage point, thousands of years later, I know that they do, indeed, enter the Land. Of course, many didn't make it 'in'--not Moses, Aaron or Miriam--or ten of the twelve spies sent to Canaan...or the original people that left Egypt...Do not miss the point here: God was not being 'mean' by not allowing them to possess the Land, no, this was the consequence of their sin--the constant complaining, whining and sowing seeds of dissension. Rememeber? They did not trust Him, or the man that He placed over them, Moses. However, the ones born during the years in the desert, the Israelite nation as a whole, did get to enter the land flowing with milk and honey.
The Land was promised long before the Israelite nation existed or exited from Egypt. Remember, their Father Abraham was promised that his offspring would be as numerous as the sand. He and his family lived as nomads, in tents, traveling throughout their lives. And, for this season realted in Numbers, the Nation of Israel became nomadic, as well--traveling and living in tents--for forty years. For even though they lived as slaves in Egypt, they had routine, they knew what their day to day life looked like--we humans like routine and predictablity, don't we? On the move, though, they had to be instructed about everything--they were given specific instructions about their posture toward God, their relationships with each other, how to live thier lives. They were given specific instruction about where to make their camp in realtion to the tabernacle, where the Lord's Presence Dwelt among them!
The 'worries' of Abraham and Sarah had been about how and when they would actually receive that baby that God had promised them. They did not seem as concerned about where they would get their next meal, or drink of water. The Israelites were very concerned about the quality and variety of food, and their water supply--and were not shy about making their concerns known to Moses.
In the desert, God taught the Israelite nation that He is faithful--that He can be trusted for their basic needs, but above all, he expected obedience and their personal holiness--and He intended to bless them, with a land not their own, that they would possess.
What about us? Do we need to be taught any lessons? My family & I have a little experience at living a sort of modern-day nomadic lifestyle. No, we didn't live in tents--or hunt for, kill and eat our food, or have to dig wells for fresh water--but at the same time, we lived for a little over a year without a 'home' to call 'our own'. We learned many lessons about trusting God's provision--His timing--and His grace.
My friend, Ian, once said, "Don't sin in the desert--you'll be there longer!" True? I think so, if we don't learn in a timely manner, we may not even make it out of the dessert. We need to learn the life-lessons as we go.
In order to recognize the lesson and learn it--we must possess clear thinking--so, Ask for the fog to be lifted from your thinking, Ask for God to bless your effort at thinking clearly--and Ask for wisdom to know 'the next thing' to do--for we know that God is faithful. Remember, we have been told that if we delight ourselves in the Lord, He will give us the desires of our heart!--The clearer He becomes to us, the more we love Him--the more our desires line up with His--and He will bless.
Take a lesson from Numbers--pursue personal holiness--pursue a life where you are not complaining or grumbling, but enjoying God's provision--remembering that it may not look exactly like we expected! Live your life in obedience and expectation. Be Blessed.
Sometimes I think we need to pray for the fog to be lifted, don't you? Do you ever feel like your ideas, thoughts, dreams are unclear-foggy? I do. I do a lot. I was reading in the book of Numbers this morning. Maybe because of my years, or maybe because of the focused time that I have been given to study. But this morning a couple of things occurred to me. As I have talked about before, life is all about 'change', and if we spend our time whining that 'we don't like change' then we are going to miss a good portion of our life--through out complaining.
If you are like me, I sometimes think that if I had been wondering around in the desert, following Moses, I would never have complained, I would have just seen the plagues and the parting of the Red Sea--and fresh manna every morning. And, I would keep in mind that 'the Promised Land' was coming.
Plus, from my vantage point, thousands of years later, I know that they do, indeed, enter the Land. Of course, many didn't make it 'in'--not Moses, Aaron or Miriam--or ten of the twelve spies sent to Canaan...or the original people that left Egypt...Do not miss the point here: God was not being 'mean' by not allowing them to possess the Land, no, this was the consequence of their sin--the constant complaining, whining and sowing seeds of dissension. Rememeber? They did not trust Him, or the man that He placed over them, Moses. However, the ones born during the years in the desert, the Israelite nation as a whole, did get to enter the land flowing with milk and honey.
The Land was promised long before the Israelite nation existed or exited from Egypt. Remember, their Father Abraham was promised that his offspring would be as numerous as the sand. He and his family lived as nomads, in tents, traveling throughout their lives. And, for this season realted in Numbers, the Nation of Israel became nomadic, as well--traveling and living in tents--for forty years. For even though they lived as slaves in Egypt, they had routine, they knew what their day to day life looked like--we humans like routine and predictablity, don't we? On the move, though, they had to be instructed about everything--they were given specific instructions about their posture toward God, their relationships with each other, how to live thier lives. They were given specific instruction about where to make their camp in realtion to the tabernacle, where the Lord's Presence Dwelt among them!
The 'worries' of Abraham and Sarah had been about how and when they would actually receive that baby that God had promised them. They did not seem as concerned about where they would get their next meal, or drink of water. The Israelites were very concerned about the quality and variety of food, and their water supply--and were not shy about making their concerns known to Moses.
In the desert, God taught the Israelite nation that He is faithful--that He can be trusted for their basic needs, but above all, he expected obedience and their personal holiness--and He intended to bless them, with a land not their own, that they would possess.
What about us? Do we need to be taught any lessons? My family & I have a little experience at living a sort of modern-day nomadic lifestyle. No, we didn't live in tents--or hunt for, kill and eat our food, or have to dig wells for fresh water--but at the same time, we lived for a little over a year without a 'home' to call 'our own'. We learned many lessons about trusting God's provision--His timing--and His grace.
My friend, Ian, once said, "Don't sin in the desert--you'll be there longer!" True? I think so, if we don't learn in a timely manner, we may not even make it out of the dessert. We need to learn the life-lessons as we go.
In order to recognize the lesson and learn it--we must possess clear thinking--so, Ask for the fog to be lifted from your thinking, Ask for God to bless your effort at thinking clearly--and Ask for wisdom to know 'the next thing' to do--for we know that God is faithful. Remember, we have been told that if we delight ourselves in the Lord, He will give us the desires of our heart!--The clearer He becomes to us, the more we love Him--the more our desires line up with His--and He will bless.
Take a lesson from Numbers--pursue personal holiness--pursue a life where you are not complaining or grumbling, but enjoying God's provision--remembering that it may not look exactly like we expected! Live your life in obedience and expectation. Be Blessed.
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