Nine years ago today, we quietly welcomed our fifth daughter in to the world!
She only celebrated 3 birthdays on this earth before going to Heaven. So, her birthday parties were always filled with family and cake and icing and presents...and usually ended in a sleepy, sticky mess...sweet mess, though!
I've known for a few weeks that there was no way I would be in any shape to 'start' the new session of Grief Share tonight with the rest of our church's Wednesday evening programming, so we will start it in two weeks. I'm so thankful today for that decision.
I woke up thinking it's gonna be a good day. And, over all it IS. But, tears are just under the surface, and I've felt this 'yuk' in the pit of my stomach all day. Just sad. I'm just sad. But, because I've been here (remembering my baby on her birthday without her here to kiss and hug and talk with...) before--6 times now--I know the sadness only lasts a little while longer.
Soon, the girls will start laughing and memories will flood in on the emotions of it all, good memories...
God is still in His Heaven, and He is faithful and just and My Comfort and My Refuge and My Strength and My JOY!
For what ever reason, I'm to go on living, and I'm to go on spreading the Word!--Giving the 'reason' for the hope that I have!
The reason: Jesus. There's power in that Name!--And, I praise HIM for it!
So, this day's gonna get better...and Heaven is that much sweeter because of HOPE I have in Jesus!
She only celebrated 3 birthdays on this earth before going to Heaven. So, her birthday parties were always filled with family and cake and icing and presents...and usually ended in a sleepy, sticky mess...sweet mess, though!
I've known for a few weeks that there was no way I would be in any shape to 'start' the new session of Grief Share tonight with the rest of our church's Wednesday evening programming, so we will start it in two weeks. I'm so thankful today for that decision.
I woke up thinking it's gonna be a good day. And, over all it IS. But, tears are just under the surface, and I've felt this 'yuk' in the pit of my stomach all day. Just sad. I'm just sad. But, because I've been here (remembering my baby on her birthday without her here to kiss and hug and talk with...) before--6 times now--I know the sadness only lasts a little while longer.
Soon, the girls will start laughing and memories will flood in on the emotions of it all, good memories...
God is still in His Heaven, and He is faithful and just and My Comfort and My Refuge and My Strength and My JOY!
For what ever reason, I'm to go on living, and I'm to go on spreading the Word!--Giving the 'reason' for the hope that I have!
The reason: Jesus. There's power in that Name!--And, I praise HIM for it!
So, this day's gonna get better...and Heaven is that much sweeter because of HOPE I have in Jesus!
5 comments:
Okay, so you've made me cry. Tears of compassion, tears of grief, tears of gratitude for my miracle boys. Hugs, hugs, hugs and blessings to you. I admire your ability to write at all today, much less write about Macy on her birthday. LOVE YOU!
Thanks, Debbie, SO thankful for you and your friendship to me...
You may not know this about me but I grew up with death just being a major part of life! I experienced loosing close people really early on, so I want to say thank you for talking about it! Noone ever wants to and sometimes you just need to see or hear that others are doing it too! I read your blogs about lose and watch you handle it so gracefully, I hope that I have many years before another close loss, but I want to handle it as well as you have and are. Thank you for being such a truely Godly woman!
Marsha you are awesome and will always be in my prayers, you and Randy be Very Blessed.
Chuck Sours Jr.
my heart breaks for you every time I think of Macy... we think of you often! so thankful for God's healing in your life, but we know it's not easy!
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