Sunday, December 30, 2012

Good-Bye Grandma...I will Always LOVE YOU!


Today is the day that I have long anticipated.  Today, December 30, 2012, my Grandma AnnaBelle Griswold’s faith became sight.  I am reminded, as I contemplate her life, of her faith.  Her faith was strong in the worst of times, and in the best of times.  She loved her church—the relationships with God’s people and the preaching she loved to hear each week.  I can remember in the early 1970’s when she got her first “Living Bible,” for when she would read it, she would relate that “it made the whole Old Testament seem like reading a lovely story book!”—I can actually still here those words in her voice. 

Grandma was the one person in the world that I always knew loved me.  There was never a doubt, for we had a bond that transcended miles and time.  We always spoke quite frankly to each other—I truly could ask her anything and she would give me an honest and from the heart answer.  I have described her many times in other posts; however, I cannot do justice to her memory here, for it isn’t formal reporting, so much as me randomly writing memories down.

Mostly what I would like to say today is that because I love her so very much, there will now be a time of grief.  The thing is, up until we lost Macy Jo, I could not picture my life without grandma’s influence.    When Macy’s accident happened Grandma & Grandpa came and spent the bigger part of a month with my family and me.    During those first days without Macy, I came to a realization that I could still breathe in and out without her.  As I reasoned and thought through all of those emotions, I reasoned that at some point, others whom mean so very much to me will one day die…

I came to a conclusion, since I was still breathing without our little daughter, that God would not allow anyone to be taken from this earthly life through death that I could not ‘live without’… even though the living looks different, or painful for a time—but not impossible—for the joy of the Lord is my strength, (Nehemiah 8:10) and “I lift my eyes to the hills, from where does my help come—My help comes from the Lord, the Maker of Heaven and Earth!” (Psalm 121)          

I wrote many journals and little essays during the darkest days following Macy’s accident.  A couple of years later, as my grandpa’s health declined, I began a grief journal because I knew it wouldn’t be long before ‘Grand-dad went away’—Grandma’s words the day she called to tell me that he had passed.  Today it was the voice of my sweet aunt calling to tell me of Grandma’s death this morning. 

I praise God for her life, for blessing her so richly while she was here, for the example of her life, wisdom and faith that she so easily shared with me throughout my entire life.  She had recently celebrated her ninetieth birthday—a good, long life.  Her love for her family was always evident—for her brothers, sisters, their spouses and children, her own children and grandchildren—she always liked ‘having her bunch around her’—that love she had for her family was inspiring.  The love she and my grandpa shared as a married couple was also inspiring.  They were married for a little over sixty-eight years—truly a sweet love story. 

And so for today, I am sad that this day has come, but I know where Grandma is—and I praise God for that assurance!  I love considering the HUGE family reunion she is enjoying tonight in Heaven—sing with me:  I Can Only Imagine! 

 

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